What's Next????

Well, I made it through the dreaded holidays. It was just as hard as I thought it would be. More tears and my heart hurt a lot, but unfortunately some unwarranted drama threw some anger into my emotional mix.
Now, here comes the next hurdle to get over. I really don't care too much about the New Year since it's not a particularly family-oriented holiday I don't really get sad except for the fact another year comes in without either of them. Christmas is more hard to deal with because of Mama than Daddy. I didn't really spend a lot of Christmases with Daddy after we left Queens so I'm used to him not being there, I only miss calling him like I did each Christmas. Now the next hurdle is January 4th....my Daddy's birthday. He will have been 81 years old. :) He never had a birthday after I could speak that I didn't tell him Happy Birthday Daddy.
I've spoken of how my Daddy loved music, he used to sing this song A LOT....Actually I don't think he knew all of the words because he would just sing the one verse...."Can you imagine, how much I love you? The more I see you as years go by. I know the only one for me can only be you. My arms won't free you. My heart won't try." Or maybe he DID know all the words and just picked that verse because it was so general it could apply to anyone, not just the woman this song was about.
Daddy's last birthday, which was spent in Amsterdam House (the extended care facility), I think/hope was special to him. Geri, his girlfriend, is the Aunt of Sister Sledge. She asked them to come and do a performance at the nursing home for him. I love Debbie, Joni, Kim and Kathi because they were crazy about Daddy too (I'd like to think everyone was). They dropped whatever they may have been doing (Debbie is always the busiest one) and came to do the benefit. No questions asked, no payment necessary. Now, since I had just gotten back from spending a week up there Joni and Kim offered to fly me back for the show, but I couldn't take more time off work so they video taped it for me. I still have the tape, haven't watched it in a LONG time because it makes me cry like a fool....
At the end of the tape Kim starts singing this song and my Daddy comes in just in time to sing his oh so familiar verse and then I hear Geri in the background saying, "Say something to Raven. This is for her, say something to Raven." So he looks into the camera and says, "Hello Baby. I love you." You can only imagine how I reacted the first time I saw it and how I react each time after.....
I think about watching the video every year on his birthday, but then I chicken out. Don't know if I will this year either.....I will let you all know in about eight days. ;)

I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.