This is my daughter. My first little girl. She has the most BEAUTIFUL smile I've ever seen to me. All hers, no braces or anything. :).............Today is her 22nd birthday. Twenty-two years ago my life changed for the better. I grew....I grew as a person, I grew as a mother.......................
That seems really strange because she is my second child. But honestly, I hadn't learned to actually be a mother until she was born. With my son, everyone was doing things for me. Never letting me sweat or need for anything. So I had never had a realistic expectation of what being a mother was. She was my first "solo project". I think with Mama's help (<3), I did good.
She seems so much like me it's kind of frightening sometimes. Same dry wit, same silly since of humor, some of the same tastes in music and we both talk more with our eyes.......She can even be VERY moody like me. Sometimes when we're having a day at the same time we have to keep distant from one another. LBS
It's often said the middle child gets lost between the oldest and the baby. Not my Devin Zayna, she has her own shine and it shines BRIGHT as her smile.
She gave me so many of my "firsts" as a mom. She gave me my first labor pains, my first natural birth. She was my first little girl. I remember all of the bows and lacey socks, the dresses and the co-ordinating outfits. (We used to dress alike a LOT, lol)....I also remember getting tired of doing both of our hair everyday so I cut ALL of mine off. LBVS.....
I love all of the "firsts" we've shared, even the bad ones, because they helped me grow and learn to be a better mother. I'm still not the BEST mother. But I'm damn sure not the WORST mother either.
I want to again wish my Devin the Happiest of Birthday's and the Happiest of all the rest of the days of her life. I love her more than the air I breathe!!!
I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.
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