Nothing At All.........

In less than 3 days I will have another year under my belt (God willing)....I've seen SO much heartache in the past 3 years it's no wonder I can still laugh as much as I do.
These 3 years have taught me a lot. Maybe TOO MUCH....Maybe NOT ENOUGH. One thing I have learned is that I am happiest when I am being true to myself. I haven't been true to myself at all in a very long time. I have been trying to make sure not to make any waves or upset other people/person, all the while, I'm the one upset.
I know my Mama didn't/wouldn't like to see me losing myself.
I know if anyone knew me and if anyone knew how much I like being quiet, she did.....She would never see me sitting still not speaking and say, "what's wrong". She knew that irritated me.
People who know me know two things about me when I'm quiet:
1. If something IS wrong, I'm quiet because I DO NOT want to talk about it.
2. If something IS wrong and I want to talk about it I WILL and sometimes you will prefer I had been quiet. LBS
Along with the changes that have been "thrust" upon me, I've made some changes myself in my life by my own choice. Some see them as "drastic" and I can't tell you how TIRED I am of hearing, "I can't believe....." about the changes I've made.
They "can't believe" because I pretended & internalized things. My Mama always knew what I needed and she was my saving grace. Now that she's not here, I have to save myself. So from here on in before year 43 hits....it's all or nothing for the "quiet storm" ;-)......

I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.