Yeah So, It's Valentine's Day.............

I've never really looked forward to Valentine's day as an adult.  As a kid I guess it was special because you would get candy and little pieces of paper with pictures on it from a little boy who had a crush on you.  I think all of the allure of this holiday wore off by freshman year of high school.
Some previous Valentine's day may stand out.  Like the one year a limo filled with flowers was sent to pick me up from work or the year when I got a wedding proposal during dinner (I said "yes" but we never got married, lol).....But, I'm not the one who "can't wait for Valentine's day"....I really can't think of ONE holiday I look forward to.
My favorite holiday used to be the 4th of July.  Not because of any kind of "independence" this country received, but because I like the fireworks and it's a holiday during the warm months.  Other holidays just do nothing for me.  With Valentine's day, I know I'm going to get flowers and candy.  That's a given.  This time though I got a GREAT gift.....My oldest daughter brought me the special edition, "Beauty & the Beast" DVD because she knows how much I love that movie.
After I found out I lost Twin, I went into a cleaning frenzy.  When I'm upset I clean.  So I cleaned bathrooms, finished laundry, vacuumed, dusted and when I couldn't think of anything else to do I sat and watched the movie.  I felt good watching, I smiled at the usual spots I smile at, just no laughter.  Didn't have a laugh to let out.  Didn't enjoy that day or the "holiday" today.  Tired of days that I wish didn't happen.............

I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.