Open Arms........

I remember when Twin and I were sitting in my living room over Thanksgiving weekend listening to music. We loved the same music. Sometimes I just really couldn't believe someone else's music tastes were just as diverse as mine.

We talked at length about Rachelle Farrell and how beautiful her voice is and how underrated she and Cassandra Wilson are as vocalists. It's just so strange how I can recall the conversation so vividly now that she's gone, when I'm thinking had someone asked me what we talked about the day before everything fell apart and she left us, I probably wouldn't have a clue.

I remember her telling me about how she loves reading these blogs I do. How she thinks I should write a book. I blew her off and she gave me a straight face without a smile and was like, "Girl I'm serious! No bullshit, for real." :) I told her like I tell Gen when she says the same thing, "I don't know. Maybe." She just sat back on the sofa like she was saying "whateva nigga"....and she probably was. LMAO

I just really hate how you plan to do things and never get to. I guess that's life....or death...however you want to look at it. *shrug*.....When she was here sitting and chatting with me while I locked my daughter's hair. I looked at hers which was such a nice, light, sandy color to me. She said she was trying to figure out what to do with it and we decided when she came back up here I would lock it for her......*sigh* I didn't get a chance to see if it would be as pretty as I thought it would.

We had just talked about her coming up here for my birthday in a few weeks. Her and Gen said I was gonna celebrate whether I wanted to or not. We had already planned for her to ride with Devin when she came up so she didn't have anymore Greyhound issues.........

This is SO UNFAIR to me. I'm where I was when my Mama was ripped away from me. In a mad place. I thought it was unfair for me to be left without my Mama when she was so young and had not seen her great-grandchildren or so many of the other things that will be happening with me or her grandchildren....I think it is even MORE UNFAIR that Twin's boys have to go through this AGAIN in less than a year. Who does that? Who takes lives like that? So random, so disconcertingly, so (IMO) callously.......Those are rhetorical questions.....Of course I already know........

I thank and appreciate all who will read. These writings are based totally on my feelings and opinions. I understand if this is your last read. Peace.