Phenomenal........

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.

I am definitely not a "people person", but I can hold an engaging conversation (when I want to, lol)....I'm more of a LISTENER than anything.  I've said before that I don't ask a lot of question.  But, I also don't tell my business or talk about myself much.  I let others do that for me.  LOL

I listen to people when they tell me how "laid back" I am.  True, I don't let a lot of things "get" to me.  I pretty much let the punches roll and the chips fall where they may when it comes to life.  You can't prevent the inevitable and no matter how hard you try, YOU CAN NOT CHANGE ANYONE BUT YOURSELF!!! So when it comes to adversity/drama/nonsense, I do tend to have a "cool" attitude.

I have also been told that I "carry myself well".  That Is more of a compliment to me than the cliched, "Your eyes are beautiful", "You have a pretty smile" or "Girl! YOU FINE". LMAO....The one "compliment" that throws me off is telling me I'm "Sexy".....What does that mean exactly?  Are you telling me I look like I'm "ready for sex"?  How can someone tell that by just looking at me? JK/CTHU

At this point in my life I have to focus on myself and my future.  I only have one baby left at home and SHE'S STRAIGHT, I GOT HER.  Now what about me?  What will happen to me if and when she is accepted to this school in the fall and has to be away from me?  I know one thing, I will work HARDER than I am now because I'll need extra cash (her new high school will be expensive).....but what about the rest?

There was only one time in my life when I questioned my worth, when my self esteem was at an ALL TIME low. I try not to think about that time because of how painful it was.  But a lot of times when I think back it helps me to focus.  It helps me know that I can do better, I deserve better, I AM BETTER.  Now comes the time when I expect others to know/realize/value my worth.  I seem to be getting overlooked/undervalued/misunderstood.....which is NEVER good.  My demeanor doesn't allow for me to do jumping jacks/cartwheels/handsprings in order to be noticed.  My level of self esteem makes it hard for me to understand why some under-estimate my worth.  My "matter of fact" way of speaking is & the fact that I can OVER EXPLAIN things, I feel, a clear indicator of my feelings and views.  

I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Yep, that's me.................Phenomenal, Focused and FIERCE!! :)

I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace