Knowing yourself and the person you've become never means that everyone acknowledges your change. I can readily admit when I was younger I was SOMETHING ELSE. I did some things I'm not very proud of and I did some things I am VERY proud of.
That's all part of my GROWTH as a woman/mother/human being.....When I was younger I made life choices and love choices I would NEVER make being and knowing who I am today.
As a grown ass woman I've decided not to acknowledge or accept foolishness. I can no longer be drawn in. It is so easy for me know to turn off/tune out drama and nonsense. It easily bores me and I immediately distance myself from the source. That's my "only child" thing kicking in again....I don't mind being alone, so one less comrade/love won't kill me.
Even when I've distanced myself from drama, when it comes to me I can still be thrown off. I'm grown and have changed, but I'm still HUMAN. I just handle the punch to my "swag" a little different than the Rae of old would have.....The old me would argue/fuss/fight.........More of a reactionary.
Mature/grown ass me, will THINK hard before I strike....IF I strike at all. This new thing that knocked me off my square yesterday only did so because it was SO uncharacteristic of this person.....But, I've learned not to let ANYTHING about ANYONE surprise me....Not even things about myself.
So while I've accepted the deceit, I haven't acknowledged it.....I don't think I will, I don't think it's necessary or productive. I'm moving on with ME....Loving ME.....Trusting ME.....I'm a good/loving/kind person....I acknowledge that about ME.
I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.
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