An extension of me............

When I had my first little girl, a few days before my 21st birthday.  I was soooooooooo excited.  I couldn't wait to buy little outfits and comb her beautiful thick curly hair.  She was just so PRETTY, like a little chocolate doll!
When she grew, she decided to become her own type of person.  No more frilly clothes. Sweats and Tees and a RIDICULOUS amount of SNEAKERS! :)
She has always been the child I think is most like me.  Not because we are the same sign or both have locks.  But her mannerisms and the way she thinks is a lot like me.  With my son, I didn't have a sole role in raising him.  His dad's parents pretty much helped (sometimes took over) with that.  I can't say I had a sole role in raising Devin, because my Mama was right there for me and her to lean on.  Dylan is the only one I can say is MAINLY my work because she "clung" to me more than anyone else in the family.
I feel almost guilty saying Devin is "like me"....She seems so much BETTER than I was at her age.  She is focused, smart and driven....Thank God she doesn't have any children right now...But, if she did, I'd have to do what was done for me.  Help her out.....I know she would be surprised to hear that, because I always say that, "I'm done raising kids.  I've had kids with me since I was 17."....That's just all talk. LOL.....I would want my kids to be able to do all the things I was able to do as a young mother (even though I didn't take full advantage).
I guess I think about this after talking to Devin about bringing her dog (Chevy) here to stay with us until she has more time for him.  If it was important to her that he be here, then even if we had to move to another home....I'd do it....She means that much AND MORE to me.....She can be kind of sullen and short when she wants to be or when she's tired..I don't care....Because, THAT'S JUST HOW I AM.......
After all of our ups and downs I'm very glad she knows (and I know she knows) how much I LOVE HER WITH THE DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART....Sometimes I think I don't deserve the children I have....I'm not sure I was the type of mother they deserved....but, I did try hard. :)
I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace.