Intentions..........

At times even the best of intentions can be interpreted wrong.  I remember always going to my Mama asking her why this or that happened and why this or that person is mad when I only said this or that.  She would just look at me and say, "Raven, everybody don't think like you." 
I try hard to remember that when I speak.  But, I'm human and as we all do, I fall short.  I along with millions, maybe billions of other people can open mouth & insert foot.  The difference with me is, unlike those millions/billions I am willing to accept what I've done wrong and sincerely apologize for it.  Because, I have GOOD intentions.  Something not everyone has.
I am very proud of the fact that I have grown enough as a person to accept when I am wrong and to take steps to correct it.  I can recall a previous friendship circle where all we did was sit on the phone ALL DAY gossiping about others.  Now that I think back, if I'd spent that time WORKING  I'd be way rich with much more leave stored up. lol
Now, the gossiping (while not completely gone) is not as extreme a factor as it was back then...Now it's strictly for entertainment purposes only & not the malicious intent it was in my previous "sister circle".  I have tried to learn to be more careful & measured with my words.  Of course, that doesn't always work, but at least I do try.
Others I have noticed don't try so hard.  They really live for the times where they can cause others pain or heartache.  It is amusement to them.  Some people have nothing else to do or are so unhappy with their situation that the only solace they can find is by hurting others INTENTIONALLY.  A lot of times, it doesn't even matter if the person they are hurting is FAMILY.
Now let me preface this with, MY FAMILY ARE BY NO MEANS THE WALTON'S! There are a few family members that if they needed my kidney & one of my friends or even a stranger needed that same kidney...these particular family members would be left short.  But along with those few, there are SO many more that I would try to rip out my own kidney & hand it to them if they needed it....I never have to worry about these family members not having my back EVER...They may talk me to death & get on my nerves before they get on their posts behind me, but they WILL DO IT!  Again, like Mama said, "Not everybody thinks like me."  I couldn't imagine intentionally telling someone in the family that I LOVE something that would hurt them or their kids/family/relationship.  If I had any information to the opposite, TRUST  I would STFU before I let my lips part.  Now that doesn't mean I don't slip, because we all do.  There would never be a time when my family member I LOVE would have to make excuses for me or my actions.....
I don't understand how a family could HAVE & sit back and watch someone they love have not and still SLEEP AT NIGHT....Luckily with the family I am surrounded by a love that no matter how strained/stressful/angry I get, I will talk it out and make my intentions VERY clear.
I thank and appreciate all who will read. Peace